I woke up early enough to do yoga before starting my busy day. It felt great to stretch out my body once more. I haven't done yoga in a long time but oh how I love it! When I used to do yoga all the time, I never noticed that my body was thinner or toner like always suggested by yoga instructors. But I have noticed that I'm more awake which is an even better benefit.
However, doing yoga didn't work for me yesterday. When visiting with a friend she said, "You look really tired." In my mind that translates to "you look like crap." I am not upset in the least by what was said; I know I look tired all the time and I look like crap most of the time. Which is frustrating because I get eight hours of sleep every night. My sleep is hardly ever quality sleep.
After speaking with Jake about this, he suggested it was my caffiene intake that keeps me too active to sleep. Well, I agreed with him and decided, once more, that I would quit drinking caffiene. I miss my sleep so much and I miss being excited about what I'm doing because I'm so stinking tired. Now I know that I said I wouldn't do this but this time it's different because it's a short term goal instead of a lifetime sentence. I'm going to not drink caffiene until Jake's graduation. My reward will be that I can get a haircut and get it dyed. I'm pretty excited but nervous that I'll fail again.
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Day Fifteen
Finally! I was able to get a break from school work and all the other demands on my life and go running. It was really cleansing and happy. I ran 2.5 miles and did a .5 mile cool-down. This time I ran faster and in the evening. The meatloaf, salad, and green beans I'd just had were getting to me a little bit and I almost quit. However, I'm fairly proud of myself. I didn't quit until I had reached my goal, which was to go further than last time. My gut started hurting but I just breathed through the pain and stayed focused on breathing right while running and my pain went away.
While thinking about the food I had just eaten it got me thinking about how my body is a temple. I've never eaten like I should. I put so much garbage into it and as a result, I'm probably not functioning as well as I physically could. The question, "What am I going to do about it?" comes to mind. Honestly, I don't know. Sadly, probably nothing. I could say that I'm going to try to quit drinking soda and I'm going to cut out desserts from my diet. Or I could say that I'm going to just regulate what goes into my body. Truth is, I've said all that stuff before and other ideas for being healthier. So this time, I won't say that. What I will say is that exercising makes me hungrier for healthier foods and drinks for my temple. Hopefully, I listen to my body and eat/drink healthier options.
Another thought while running: while listening to the song "Hey, Hey" by Superchick (currently my favorite song) I got to thinking about my students and my role as their teacher. Some of the lyrics go like this:
"I won't bow down even if the whole world thinks I'm crazy...
No one can sing the song you do. Be true , be legendary you. I won't sell out even if the whole world thinks I'm crazy..."
And then the next song was "Meant to Live" by Switchfoot. They got me thinking. I want to be a legendary teacher. I want to be that teacher students remember as an adult and think fondly of, the teacher they recognize as making a difference in their education. It saddens me to admit, but a lot of teachers in my school think that I'm amazing and I work so hard and my students are improving so much. This saddens me because that means they don't necessarily see themselves as amazing, hardworking, with students who are improving. I don't do anything special, really. I just care about my students and their success. My expectations for them are never lowered. And they rise to the occassion. Some students do take longer than others and some students need to start out with a lower expectation but they improve and learn and they're HAPPY when they can recognize their own improvement. However, I do work with some amazing teachers that work the same way that I do: with high, achievable expectations. Somehow I need to make it clear to those who don't, that their students can have success; even the ones who qualify for special education.
Anyway that doesn't have much to do with running other than that's what I was thinking while running. Tomorrow, I think I'll have time to go again but I think I'll take it slower. Especially since I'll be sore in the morning.
PEACE!
While thinking about the food I had just eaten it got me thinking about how my body is a temple. I've never eaten like I should. I put so much garbage into it and as a result, I'm probably not functioning as well as I physically could. The question, "What am I going to do about it?" comes to mind. Honestly, I don't know. Sadly, probably nothing. I could say that I'm going to try to quit drinking soda and I'm going to cut out desserts from my diet. Or I could say that I'm going to just regulate what goes into my body. Truth is, I've said all that stuff before and other ideas for being healthier. So this time, I won't say that. What I will say is that exercising makes me hungrier for healthier foods and drinks for my temple. Hopefully, I listen to my body and eat/drink healthier options.
Another thought while running: while listening to the song "Hey, Hey" by Superchick (currently my favorite song) I got to thinking about my students and my role as their teacher. Some of the lyrics go like this:
"I won't bow down even if the whole world thinks I'm crazy...
No one can sing the song you do. Be true , be legendary you. I won't sell out even if the whole world thinks I'm crazy..."
And then the next song was "Meant to Live" by Switchfoot. They got me thinking. I want to be a legendary teacher. I want to be that teacher students remember as an adult and think fondly of, the teacher they recognize as making a difference in their education. It saddens me to admit, but a lot of teachers in my school think that I'm amazing and I work so hard and my students are improving so much. This saddens me because that means they don't necessarily see themselves as amazing, hardworking, with students who are improving. I don't do anything special, really. I just care about my students and their success. My expectations for them are never lowered. And they rise to the occassion. Some students do take longer than others and some students need to start out with a lower expectation but they improve and learn and they're HAPPY when they can recognize their own improvement. However, I do work with some amazing teachers that work the same way that I do: with high, achievable expectations. Somehow I need to make it clear to those who don't, that their students can have success; even the ones who qualify for special education.
Anyway that doesn't have much to do with running other than that's what I was thinking while running. Tomorrow, I think I'll have time to go again but I think I'll take it slower. Especially since I'll be sore in the morning.
PEACE!
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Day Two
Today was overall a crappy day when it came to getting things done that I really wanted to do. My alarm didn't go off this morning so I didn't go running which ended up being a good thing because Kati texted me that she was exhausted and going to sleep in. This way we both got a little more sleep. The day started off good. I got a new student to keep track of his behavior which I wouldn't mind except all of our ducks weren't in a row so the interventions we're doing aren't going to be effective in the least bit. This doesn't have anything to do with running but it is a frustration which is one reason why I like to run. I find that my mind opens as I run. I think more clearly on how to solve problems. This is because I don't have anything else to and I have to think about something to keep my mind off of any pain I could be feeling.
I had to go in for an ELED interview which was ok but then I had to go to a REAL class which I haven't done since last summer and paying attention is such a chore. Broadcast classes are awesome in that you don't really have to pay attention. Once again, this is just another source of my frustration.
However, I have an awesome husband who loves to give me good news. And he gave me some great news in regards to his graduation status. I'm so proud of him and all that he's doing to help keep our little family a float. My time is very limited with him this semester so, in my eyes, going running or to the gym in the evenings isn't an option. In the summer that'll probably change.
Maybe tomorrow will be better and I'll be able to go running but I doubt it. Everyday it seems like I have a new assignment due that I either didn't know about or forgot about so I've no free time. Tomorrow night is no exception; I already know. I've got a Math Module that I was suppose to start last week but haven't been able to do. A one page summary for a redundant assignment is also on my list. And most importantly, I need to study for stupid PRAXIS. I can't fail that test. I don't have time or the money to retake it. BAH. Finding time to do the things I want to do shouldn't be this difficult. It's absurd that I have to plan out time weeks ahead of schedule to hang out with Jake.
I had to go in for an ELED interview which was ok but then I had to go to a REAL class which I haven't done since last summer and paying attention is such a chore. Broadcast classes are awesome in that you don't really have to pay attention. Once again, this is just another source of my frustration.
However, I have an awesome husband who loves to give me good news. And he gave me some great news in regards to his graduation status. I'm so proud of him and all that he's doing to help keep our little family a float. My time is very limited with him this semester so, in my eyes, going running or to the gym in the evenings isn't an option. In the summer that'll probably change.
Maybe tomorrow will be better and I'll be able to go running but I doubt it. Everyday it seems like I have a new assignment due that I either didn't know about or forgot about so I've no free time. Tomorrow night is no exception; I already know. I've got a Math Module that I was suppose to start last week but haven't been able to do. A one page summary for a redundant assignment is also on my list. And most importantly, I need to study for stupid PRAXIS. I can't fail that test. I don't have time or the money to retake it. BAH. Finding time to do the things I want to do shouldn't be this difficult. It's absurd that I have to plan out time weeks ahead of schedule to hang out with Jake.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Day One
My attempt to eventually run a marathon has started today and I know the journey will be a long one. I plan on running at least one 5k this summer with my sister Kimberly. As a result, I started training today and it went extremely well. I may be able to bump up to a half marathon in no time. However, we'll see. In the past, I have be extremely motivated do things like run marathons and to exercise and to eat well but my motivation does not ever last very long. Thus I am using The Blog as a motivational tool. This outlet will mainly be for me and will not be eloquent in any way, shape, or form, but if you find you enjoy it, that's great.
Running, on a track or elsewhere, isn't something I've done since high school graduation. That's not to say that I've never "worked out" in the past 4 and a half years but I usually stay on the olyptical. Running on a track today was comparatively liberating. Back in the day I used to go running on trails and I think that may be something I start doing again this summer along with my other plans to go hiking in as many places in Utah as time permits.
Anywho, I don't know how long it took me but I warmed up with a lap (the track is half a mile) then I commenced running and kept going for two miles. Honestly, I was loving it and could've kept going but the shower was calling my name so I could get ready for work. Tomorrow's run, I hope, will be just as enjoyable.
Running, on a track or elsewhere, isn't something I've done since high school graduation. That's not to say that I've never "worked out" in the past 4 and a half years but I usually stay on the olyptical. Running on a track today was comparatively liberating. Back in the day I used to go running on trails and I think that may be something I start doing again this summer along with my other plans to go hiking in as many places in Utah as time permits.
Anywho, I don't know how long it took me but I warmed up with a lap (the track is half a mile) then I commenced running and kept going for two miles. Honestly, I was loving it and could've kept going but the shower was calling my name so I could get ready for work. Tomorrow's run, I hope, will be just as enjoyable.
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